Im confused now cz don't know wht to do next. I'm divorced but we still staying under one roof. He still support our daily needs cz he loves me. But I had start to get to know new friends from dating site n chat apps. Start to meet up u know. I didn't do anything wrong but I enjoy love n being loved.
He starts to change, no more yelling to the kids, no more beating n punching. I thought I had been married to him for 18 years n we can start all over again. So, I book a two bedroom residence online n we go to Malaysia to spend 3 days time together. I'm sleeping in the same room with him n trying to get the feeling back just like b4. I failed. The kids r happy n he is happy too but not me. I had tried very hard but I can't. I was telling myself, why not I just pretend like nothing happen n u know, go back to the life we had b4? But a sound in my heart keep asking me, how long will it last?
Ohh gosh, wht am I going to do now? What decision must I make? Wht kind of life I'll hv if I choose to be with him again? Can I go for what I want? Can I choose to love n being loved? ohh my God, who can choose for me.......?
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