Deserts at Northpoint

29.01.2014  Wednesday

Today is my boy boy turn to have deserts with mommy at Northpoint. Look delicious right? Lol.

Another friend from facebook

28.01.2014   Tuesday

I don't know since when there is a message in my Facebook inbox again. This person name Harrison Nelson.  He is 51 years old and he said that this is his first time to have friend on Facebook. He leave a message there in my inbox and also give me his email address. I reply his message by using the email address he gave me.

He told me lots of thing that's concern about himself. What does he like, What he don't like, What he like to do and What kind of person he is. He send me a long email that make me feel headache. I don't like to use my brain and he wants me to tell him more about myself. Aiyoyo, I don't know where to start and what to write.

Just any how reply lah. Then he says that he has a huge smile when reading my Mail. What's there so funny in my Mail? I should have know if there is something interesting. don't care lah. Hope he is as sincere as my ko ko. I really get sick of those scammer, always think that I'm an idiot. Can get money from me so easy. I had chased two of them away and I'm tired to have friend on Facebook again......

Unhappy day

26.01.2014  sunday

This morning when we wake up, we are all so happy coz my mommy is going to bring us to shopping. She wants to buy clothes for my two babies. I go with them coz I need to buy some thing for this coming Chinese New Year.

We have our breakfast at the coffee shop downstairs. My " him " call and said that he bought some Chinese herb and deserts for me and my two babies. Then we meet him at the coffee shop. He drop us at NTUC supermarket after we have our breakfast.

We shop shop here shop shop there and have buy a lot of things. Mom met her old friend there and start to talk. You know old laddies are like that,  once they start to talk they will never end. There come a man pushing his bicycle and purposely knock on my mom. Then she starts to scold that man. This is the first unhappy thing that happened before we went back home.

Actually we want to take a cab but there is no taxi at all. so, we have to take bus home. I receive a call when we are at the interchange, my C.O.P. chairman call and ask me Why is it so many policemen go to 4th floor? Is that anything happen to me? I say " No " I'm still outside.
Then we met her downstairs and she told us that the policemen went to my Neighbor's house. Aiyah, don't care lah. Why must we be so busy body? My boy started to shout at the corridor coz he wanted to go toilet but he had No keys to open the door.

Then we go back home and mommy starts to make her plants outside the corridor. Then we are all inside the room enjoying the air-con. The couple next door come to me and said that my boy hold a big chopper in his hand and show to their son. I was so angry and start to yell at  them. You choose to believe your son so do I. You go back to your house and discipline your own son and stop worrying about my son. I called the police to come and settled the problem, if they are not coming I'm going to use my own way.

The policeman come and go to the two boys. According to the two boys story, the policeman found that the boy next door was lying coz my boy laughed at him when he fell down and he was trying to take revenged, so he lied to his Mother saying that my boy show him the chopper. He told the policeman that he did to him when we are all downstairs, means we are all not around and we didn't see what hapoen actually. I said to the police that my boy wanted to go to the toilet but he had No key to open the door and how can he had a chopper in his hand? The policeman knows that I'm a C.O.P. and I'm well known in my neighborhood coz I'm here for almost 30 years. He choose to believe my boy also coz we are hanging a cross at our door. Christian doesn't do such a thing. Although they are also Christian but their boy lied.

So, I tell my children that What kind of seeds you plant, you will get What kind of fruits. Their parents lie so their son lie too. Yes, I admit I had plant a seed of hooligan but at least hooligan doesn't lie. Why am I saying that coz they borrow a sum of money from me in year 2013 the beginning of March and promise to return before end of March. But they keep giving me empty promise. They return the sum of money on November year 2013 bcoz I told them I'm going to make a police report. That's Why I say to my babies that you are not getting only one fruit on the tree but is many. So, think twice before you want to plant and ask yourself What kind of fruit you want to have.......

Friend to ko ko

23.01.2014   Thursday

I guess ED is a scammer, coz he didn't call me any more after I told him that my friend had took my money that is for him away. Thanks God for that. Really Thanks God for putting so much friends around me to solve my problem for me.

Actually I had looked for SG when I'm in a situation of that. But he didn't reaply my message. Then I go to Angel for help. She is the one who teach me how to reply ED's message.

Then SG Says that "I am here for you, What happen?" Then I told him everything about ED and he wants me to block him in Facebook. then I told him that I ever thought that they were all friends. But SG said that he doesn't know them.

My baby also said to me that: " mommy, have you ever suspect that actually ED is CT? He is just using another name to chat with you in Facebook. " I didn't think of that actually. But everything is over now. No matter he is CT or ED, it's doesn't matter. There is a reason Why she think that way, coz when I talk to ED in the phone, the voice like coming from a recorder. It's Very Low pitch. Doesn't sound like a human. Ha-ha! Lol.

Then I chat with SG that night using whatsapp. He promise me that he'll take me as a sister forever. I hope I can have him as a ko ko forever too. I also hope that he is not like others. I ever told him that he is so special and he is so different from others. I can feel that he is really sincere to me. Thanks God for everything that is given to me.

Deco in Chinatown

20.01.2014  Monday

We went to see the decorations in Chinatown after our meal. It's so nice. My two little princess and prince were so happy. My little boy doze off after seeing the lights there. This year is the year of Horse. My boy was born in the year of Horse and it means he is 12 this year. The animal take 12 years to go one round. Another one more round my little boy will be 24. From Ah boy to Man. Lol.

Celebration on Monday

20.01.2014  Monday

Today is the second celebration on Monday. The so call daddy's birthday. Lol. We go back to the same place and having the same food again. But as long as they are happy, then I will also happy.

The thick skin

17.01.2014  Friday

There was a thick skin staying in our house. There is No other creation in this world can challenge him, cos his skin is as thick as the elephant. I had chased him out since last year. Still he doesn't want to leave. He had been here for three years already.

Actually three years ago my hubby had come to me and said that his brother's house was taken away from HDB. Then?  I asked. Does this concern about me? None of my business right? He said that he wants to come and stay in our house. My answer is "No." But he said that the ancestors tablet had No where to put, then again? My business again meh?

But the ancestors tablet is his parents, I can't say anything but to accept it. Who knows the thick skin come into the house together with the tablet. I told my hubby that I'm a Christian and to accept the tablet is very difficult to me. Coz we can't accept this thing to come into the house.

I was so angry because of him. I show my anger to everyone and everyday. My hubby said just let him be, its temporary he won't stay long. What the fuck, temporary tem.... for three years. I had chased him on September last year. He wants me to give him two more weeks. Two weeks until now. Fuck, never see such a thick skin before. Chased also never go. Stupid asshole.

Can't stand such a thick skin, Even Christian also have to speak vulgarities. Stupid idiot, make me sins against my God.....fuck.

Busy day

16.01.2014   Thursday

I've been busy in whatsapp and SMS these few days. Steven and Edwin are in there. I like to talk to Steven in whatsapp coz I feel so free to talk. He is so different. Not like others will call you honey or my love. He will let me know What is the right time to talk to a Man. Not like others only sweet talk.

Edwin is in the SMS. I have a kind of feeling inside me. I always keep myself alert and feeling so stiff when I'm talking to him. I feel so uncomfortable. Bcoz he will say I miss you, I love you and muah muah muahhhh without any feeling. It's so different from CT. You really can feel the love for you in his words. Words from Edwin doesn't make me feel that way. Maybe I'm afraid to get hurt one more time. That's Why I keep myself alert. Not to drop myself into the trap.

Hope that one day I can meet Steven here in Singapore. Coz he told me that sometimes their ship will come in to Singapore. But will be in Keppel seaport.....

Things to share

14.01.2014  Tuesday

Yes Lord, our souls can only have peace when we are in you. Our prayers is our direct line to you. Amen.

Hair colour

13.01.2014  Monday

Other students had started school on the 2nd Jan. But my baby started today bcoz of her hair colour.

We had spoken to the Form teacher, DM and VP last Wednesday. They want my baby to go back to school as soon as possible.

I went to buy a hair dye to dye for my baby. Make sure she can go back to school today. This is the promised I made last Wednesday.

My baby came back from school saying that they still not satisfy to her hair colour. The latest by next Monday her hair colour must be totally black.

Who cares, I am not going to dye her hair one more time coz too many hair dye will spoil her hair. My baby love her hair so much and how can I just ignore her feeling? So, I told her that " don't worry, coz they will forget about your hair next Monday. " if they still remember,then too bad lo. You have to do the hair dye one more time lo.

Stupid right? Why is it the another VP can dye her hair into gold colour but my baby can not? Why is it she can wear her dress or skirt so short but other students cannot? Why is it the teachers can be late but the students cannot? These are the questions I asked the Vice principal.

Must be fare and square right? You yourself a vice principal, you have to set a good example for the students to follow right? Kids will have a lot of questions. They will ask " Why adults can do Whatever they want and they will stop us from doing the same things like them? " how are we going to answer their question? I won't stop my kids from doing anything they want to do. They can do whatever they want but only one thing they cannot do, the thing is " DO NOT ACT LIKE A HOOLIGAN." That's all.

Things to share

13.01.2014   Monday

Yes Lord, let your wisdom pour upon us right now in the name of Jesus. Teaches us to be the way you want us to be. Amen.

Today Dinner

12.01.2014  Sunday

My two little prince and princess are so upset coz their daddy 's taxi had to tow to the work shop. They have to go to school by themselves tomorrow morning. There will be No happy dinner for tomorrow night too.

That's Why today we have our dinner here to replace the one we should have tomorrow. Look delicious right?

Then they have to go to school themselves.
Little princess is upset. But little prince is so happy to ask his daddy to give extra pocket money to take taxi tomorrow. How clever he is?

Stupid thing that happen today

11.01.2014  Saturday

I'm home with my two little prince and princess since afternoon. We are so happy when we are doing our own business in the room. I am surfing in my facebook account, my baby is sleeping and my boy is watching movie with his hand phone. They join me when they finish their own business. We are watching videos in my account and their daddy call to ask me whether I want a Samsung S3? Of cause I want lah then. Two of them start to fight against each other bcoz of the S3. I'm so angry and ask their daddy to throw the phone away.

I have a talk with them and say that Why didn't I get a S4 for myself? I know that if I get the new model phone for myself, one is not enough, coz their daddy also will act like a child as the two kids. It means if I get one, I also need to get one each for them. I'm not that stupid. That's Why I get the cheapest one. ( Samsung Mega ) it's only $18 for I'm using the highest plan. Their daddy sees that I'm having the Mega he also want to have one for himself. But I need to pay more for he is having a different plan as mine. That is their Daddy. Stupid right?

Sometimes I feel so tired to have such a family. Husband is just like a child. I give birth to two but I'm looking after three " babies ". It's really tired. So many times I been thinking of giving up. Just walk off and No turning back. But I can't just leave my two babies to him coz he doesn't know how to handle them when they have any argument against each other. The only thing he knows is " whack " them. Sound stupid right? Don't even know how to be a father.......stupid. stupid. stupid.

Things to share

12.01.2014  Sunday

Yes , Lord is our refuge, our strength and our shield. No matter which situation you are in, don't ever let go God's hand. Amen.

Things to share

11.01.2014  Saturday 

Our future is in God's hand. Just have faith in him, cause He has a plan for everyone of us. Amen.

Things to share

10.01.2014  Friday

Amen. Yes Lord,  our future is in your hands Lord. Help us today to know more about you and help us to love you more.

The Fifth Day

08.01.2014  Wednesday.

Today is a busy day coz I have an appointment with my Pastor at 2:00 pm in the church office, and I need to bank in the rental for my " him ", then to the post office to top up my pay u key and meet my baby's teacher by 5:00 pm.

So, I wake my baby up at about 11:30am, we go lunch together. Then we go to the church office to see Pastor. Our conversation take about two hours. Then we plan to deposit the money at the bank near by, but my " him "call and says that he is just near by and are we going to meet the teacher? So, I didn't do the bank in and he come and fetch us.

When we reach the school, the Form teacher get the VP and we go in to the VP's room to discuss What are they going to do with my baby hair colour? They still insist to want my baby to dye her hair black. I am so angry about that and say to them " Why is it the another VP can dye her hair and my baby cannot? " She has a human being parents but my baby don't have is it? I'm a human being also OK? and she can wear a very short skirt or dress to school , Why is it students cannot? She is a VP and she has to set a good example to the students in the school to follow right? This VP is trying to help that VP to explain Why she can be like that. (VP is Vice Principal )

My " him " was so angry and said that No need to talk any more then bring my baby and leave the VP 's room. Still the VP was trying her very best to make me stay. She says that they are trying to help but not to punish my baby. At last, we have an agreement,  my baby will come back to school on Monday with a hair colour black. The VP wants to pay for the hair dye but I don't want. Coz this is not part of her job. I know that she is very kind but I don't want to take her kindness for granted. Yes!

那位仁兄

07.01.2014  Tuesday

我们那位在 youtube 开着视频对梁琼月开骂的仁兄，最近我看了他的最新升级版，他骂的很少了。因为他说他这几天在回想他的“干你娘”文化是否太粗俗了？而且很多人在他开了视频一个星期后，留 了很多comment 都在说他，反而没有人说梁琼月。他在反思过后，觉得是不是他的文化太粗俗了。还说他在睡觉时看见了主耶稣，以为是主找他算账，后来原来不是，主对他说：“ 你这样骂xxx是不对的。不过谢谢你帮我xxx那个梁琼月。因为她是魔鬼教的，她不是我的信徒。主说他从来没有叫他的信徒去污蔑别人的宗教。因为主是爱，他教导他的信徒说，有人打你左脸，你也要把右脸也给他。还要以宽大的心胸去原谅别人。”

其他的就不说了，因为这样就够了。只要他看见了主耶稣基督才是最重要的。我记得他曾经在第一次的视频里头说过一句话：”你见过观音吗？要不然你说他是半男半女，你整天拜耶稣，你见过耶稣吗？如果你说你见过，那么你 sot 了。“

现在是他自己看到了，噢！感谢主！他看见你了。他知道你是真的，是活生生的主了。还是会和他说话的主。感谢你主！因为你不止是我们活生生的主，也是为我们伸冤的主。哈利路亚！你是配得称颂的。我们要称颂你，要高举你的圣名。阿门！

Something to share

07.01.2014  Tuesday

Be joyful and glad in the Lord. And always give Thanks to God for everything that had given to us.

Things to share

Actually I have lots of things to share. As like the photos from the Journey of Moses. Those pictures are all concern about God. Some of them are the verses from the Bible. Actually if we can have one or two verses from the Bible a day, God will lead us not into temptation. Amen.

Before and After

06.01.2014  Monday

My Billy boy had his hair cut this afternoon. How does he look like? Handsome right? Lolzzz.

SSC（Sembawag Shopping Centre)

Having happy hour with my two little princess.

又快乐又恼人的—天

04.01.2014  Saturday.

我今天本来是很开心的。因为和爸爸一起吃饭。其中也有宝贝的同学，还有老公。我们在聊东聊西，什么都聊。然后就送爸回家。

我们回到家后，我接到传道的whatsapp, 以下是我们的通话。我今早上才被人气到，我都尽量把它忘了。我打电话到教会办公室，接电话的说：“你要转会吗？你的父母也是会友，就三个人一起办吧！省得麻烦。她是以什么样的身份发言呢？还是帮谁代言呢？算了吧！

晚上还接到这样的简讯，人生不如意，什么什么十之八九。往往开心的时间是不长久的。不如意的事却常常缠住你不放。还是算了吧！要不然气坏自己更糟。

So Boring

04.01.2014  Saturday

Wake up in the morning don't know What to do. Ask my two babies to go and brush their teeth and wash their face, I want to bring them down to take their meal. But my boy boy refuse to go with us. Then I just go with my baby.

When we come back home, boy boy is busy in the kitchen, he says that he is cooking the rice and he wants to fried rice for all of us. He wants us to feel his love in his fried rice. So sweet right? When he is not naughty, he is really very sweet. But when he is naughty, I really feel like killing him. Sometimes I even want to throw him down from 12th storey.

It's not easy to handle a child like him. He had Dyslexia, he is under the anger management therapy, he was 80% hyper…………ect. Bcoz of this we are all under counseling. Especially me coz I'm the one who stay home with them.

I think maybe this is good for me too. Coz I really need someone to talk to or lean on. Lucky the counselor is a pretty lady. Ha-ha! Lolzzzzz.

Second day of school

03.01.2014  Friday

Yesterday my baby was send back home by her teacher due to her hair colour. I told her that No need to go to school tomorrow coz her teacher want me to dye her hair back to black colour. Stupid, I spend so much money for her hair colour then now I have to spend another sum of money for the back one.

Her teacher call her dad and ask for the reason of her absent today. Her dad say to her teacher that " you doesn't allow her to go to school right? Then I keep her at home lo." The teacher was so scared when he heard that and he wants her dad to bring her to school on Monday and see What they can do for her. Ha-ha I win.
Her dad answer her teacher that " see first la. I don't know which day I'm free." Yes!

My baby keep saying that she wants her hair to be black coz she wants to go back to school. I say " your dad already talk to your teacher and they ask you to go back to school with this hair colour OK? " No need to be worry OK! You can keep this hair colour for yourself for at least two months OK!

She says that " mommy,  you are so different from others Mother, their mommy will never do all this for their children. " Yes baby, I'm very different from others mommy coz I put you and your brother in the first place in my heart. Hair colour is Small matter to me that's Why I'm trying to fight for your benefit. But listen carefully, I will not do the same if both of you are not behave well in school. OK! " lolzzzzz..ha-ha !

Friend from Facebook

03.01.2014  Friday

I have get to know a new friend through my Facebook account. He is a Caucasian from Zurich Switzerland. His name is Edwin David. Actually he had send his message on the 30th Dec 2013. Still my baby again saw the message yesterday. I replied the message and he send back to me at about 1++ am. I woke up at 3++ am for a drink and I saw his message and also I reply one to him. I asked my baby to check on their time through google. And my baby told me that their time there is 13 hours different from us. It's not easy to have time to chat with each other.

13 hours different make me think of CT. When he was at Venezuela, our time is also 13 hours different from each other. I always call him in the afternoon and his time there is just past midnight. That's Why he use to say that " honey, I'm on my bed and I'm naked." Ooh, I miss him so much. I had left a message in his inbox on New Year Eve. He didn't read the message till now.

Actually I really want to help him when he is in Indonesia. but I don't know Why he insisted me to use his way to transfer the money? I really love him so much. I can just have him in the phone or internet, I can just have him without seeing him in the reality.

I think I really hurt him too deeply, he didn't even go to his Facebook account. If not he had already read my message. I always think that he is a scammer, What about if he is not? OMG Why am I still thinking of him again? ……………

What had happened today.

02.01.2014  Thursday

My baby found two messages in my Facebook inbox again.
Ooh, there are two different persons. One of them is Chinese and the other is a Caucasian. I don't know where is he from and there is Nothing status in his profile. The Chinese one if I'm not wrong he is from Singapore my own country.

I reply to both of them and only the Chinese one get back to me. He told me that he is 52 years old and is looking for a partner for himself but he doesn't want to get marry. I told him that I'm not the one he is looking for and I don't think there is any girl will fool around with him without any promise to her. We had a short conversation and it's not fun at all. So I think I'm not going to chat with him anymore.

So stupid lo. He message me again and ask me whether I can be his girl friend? And said that he is already 52 and is not married, so his " thing "can not be use any more. Yuck, so disgusting lo.

Feel so bored. Nothing to do and had no interesting thing happen. Eeeeeeerahk. Feel like drying up.

First Day of School

02.01.2014  Thursday

School reopen after a long long holiday. My two little kids was so happy this morning. My baby even invite my little princess for breakfast before they go to school.

I go back to sleep after they leave home. Normally when school open, my sleeping time will be in the morning. Coz I have to wake them up at 6:30 am. I take sleeping pills to help me sleep, so I'm afraid that I might not be able to wake up at this hour. that's Why I keep myself awake during the night.

I don't want their Daddy to wake them up is bcoz he is using his leg to wake them with a very bad attitude. He use to wake up at this hour too. I saw that with my own eyes several times. That's Why I always said that my two little one was so unfortunately to have a Daddy that doesn't know how to love them. So poor thing right?

I sleep so soundly coz No one is at home and No one here to disturb my sleep. Ooh my God it's just 10 am who is the one that had call me at this hour? Whoa! 16 miss call. Ooh is my baby. She told me that she had been send back by her DM ( Discipline Master ) due to her hair colour. The teacher had talk to me in the phone and explain to me Why are they sending her back and they want me to dye her hair to black colour. OK lo. Lolz ………

I'm waiting for my baby to come back home coz I'm afraid that she will be sad for that. I told her not to go to school tomorrow, then I will know what kind of reason I can use for writing a parent letter for her absent. ha-ha …………. Lolz …………she said that I'm so bad. No, I'm not bad but the teacher is bad coz I ask him to give me some time and he give me only to Friday means tomorrow. F ……………!

About My Him

01.01.2014  Wednesday

My baby ask me Why am I not writing anything about their Daddy? I got Nothing to wrire about him. Maybe I can try to write something about our past. We are going to celebrate our 17th anniversary one month later.

I get to know their father when I'm working in a karaoke lounge. I sit in their room whenever they come to the lounge. But I'm not sitting with him. There is another Malaysian girl sitting with him. I don't like that girl and I'm thinking of a way to make them separate.

One day, I heard that the stupid girl is going back to Malaysia. Here come a chance for me to make him mine. I don't like him actually. I just want to snatch him away from her. I am taking drugs during I'm working there. But I'm awake after taking that. I scold him by using vulgarities words when he pass by me. He heard but he ignore me.

He call me the second day and ask me about last night, who am I scolding? You are the one I said. He ask me Why am I so angry and using the vulgarities? I have Nothing to say but to say that I like him. He was shocked when he heard that and was silent for minutes. I'm the one who start to talk first. I ask him that " can't I like you? " He answer me that " Yes, you can,  Why not? " Then from that day onwards he is mine.

Three days later when the stupid girl come back from Malaysia, I'm was so proud to say that " Ooh I'm so Sorry, the customer you are having is now mine." Actually, I'm having a few more customers there that like me so much. But I just tell them that we are just friend and please don't fall in love with me. Cos it's not easy to married a girl that's working in such a place. But they insist and say that let them be. Okay lo. Since you want to be like that I have No right to stop you. But I have my right not to accept you as my boy friend.

My him is different coz I snatch him from that stupid girl and I had told him that I like him. So he came to the lounge to look for me as a boy friend of me. I can't stop him by doing that. I had said in the beginning that I take drugs during I'm working.

One day, there come a group of police came to my working place and they took me away for suspecting me taking drugs. He and the other customer saw that I was taken away by the police. He went to the police station and wait there until the next morning they release me. I pass my urine test coz I'm using others urine. Ha ha.

He sent me home after I'm released and my mom saw him and ask me Why am I so late? I told her everything and she says that he is not a bad guy. She wants me to think about that. What the ……? I don't want to have any boy friend that is from my working place. She keep nagging me until I really cannot take it any more. Then I ask him whether he wants to marry me? He says Okay and then we go ROM for register. Then we become husband and wife in year 1997.02.12.

Head to Toe and Toe To Head

01.01.2014  Wednesday

Happy New Year To All Readers. May our Father in Heaven open up the window and pour his Blessing onto all of you and your family in the year ahead.

Today is the brand new start of year 2014. I have a very strong feeling inside me. This year will be a very Blessing year. No matter we are in What kind of situation, we are blessed. Amen? Amen.

Last night we went to the church for our count down service and give Thanks to God for What he had done for us in year 2013. I'm really blessed.

I give Thanks to God for my boy had passed his examination.  he is promoted to primary 6. This is the very first time he pass his exam. From primary 1-4 he didn't even pass once. As for my baby, she is promoted to secondary 3. I give thanks to God for being with her and blessed her in the year 2013. She gone through a lot and had admitted to the hospital in the beginning of 2013. She was always absent in school due to her health problem. I give Thanks to God for he has gave me a wonderful life in year 2013 too. Although I had gone through a lot of difficulties but I'm still blessed, bcoz he always there with me and lead me through it. I believe that if God bring you to it, He will bring you through it. Amen?  Yeah Amen.

My action plan in 2014 is to prepare myself to be a God's good servant. Yeah! Amen.