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I had forgotten when is my last date of posting. I have been very busy now a days.

I think it's around April this year, my baby come to me and said " Mommy, I download beetalk for you, it's fun."

She send out friend request n accept friends from there. I didn't even go in and I don't even know what's that.

I run out of home one day bcoz my two babies fight against each other again. I had nothing to do but to play games with my phone. I saw the apps and I just click on it. Someone post something on buzz in beetalk. I just comment and he had replied.
From that day onwards, we start to chat.

I get to know a person name OM also. He is from India. Another one I name him " 7 wonders " so, from here I start using beetalk to make friends with different kind of people and they are from all different countries.........

回顾十一年前的我

27.03.2014   星期四

记得在上一次提起的那位接受主的姐妹，在她身上看見了十一年前的自己。她的积极，她对上帝的渴慕。彷彿看見了自己。回想起刚信主时，我连走路也祷告，唱诗赞美敬拜上帝。现在呢？感觉自己好像越走越退步了。还亏自己在这几年读了那么多书。应该更亲近上帝才对，怎么会越来越远离上帝呢？惭愧呀！

不过，看着她现在可以和上帝沟通说话，这是值得感恩的。从她身上也清楚知道自己的方向在那里了。我会继续我手上的工作的。求主与我同在。帮助我来完成手上属上帝的工。继续的把福音传出去。让更多人能得到上帝的救恩。感谢上帝。也求主帮助我更爱你。阿门。

又伤心又开心的一天

02.03.2014  星期日

上个星期日带了一个姐妹到义顺圣公会去。这个星期日就做了决志祷告，接受主耶稣基督作她个人的救主。这是一件值得开心又感恩的事。

不开心的是，我心里头的结还没完全解开。虽然向上帝作了祷告，但是还是没办法有所突破。可能这次被伤的太重了。

人家常说“被人踩在脚底下”但至少还有人看见你。我是被“踩在地底下”别人完全看不见的那种。这件事是从去年“良伴”毕业时，一直到现在的。到现在我还是放不下这心里头的痛。

我一直在求问上帝“为什么是我呢”？在原本的教会我已经被判了死刑，我再留下来也没意思了。但是教会方面又不肯放人让我离开。我该怎么办呢？…………

Irritating Messagers

20.02.2014   Thursday

I don't know how all English men get in to my facebook? They are all V.I.P. to me. V.I.P. means " very irritating person." They are all scammers. In the earlier time I get to know one of them, he leave a message in my Facebook inbox. I thought that I can have a friend from there so far away in UK. I never know that he was a scammer.

I'm not a stupid woman and I'm not greedy. Things that are not belongs to me, I'll never want them. I wrote this thing here is to let those ladies who come into my blog to know that there are lots of English men out there fool around in Facebook to look for their targets. Beware of it. May God Bless You always.

Sad Moment

06.02.2014   Thursday

You know? I had just registered a course on line. When I'm doing my homework, I'll stop a while to access my Facebook account. I have three accounts altogether. So I access one by one. When I go into my third account, I saw a message in my inbox. Guess who is that who leave the message? It's CT.

I don't know Why I'm crying when I read the message? He was written there saying that he was working in Malaysia now. I can't even control myself, I was crying while I try to reply his message. Tears all over my eyes. I can't see things clear while I'm typing.

I wrote to him " Hi dear, do you know who am I?  I think you might have mistaken me as someone else. You really make me cry. I take times to heal myself. Please don't send the right message to the wrong person again. I know I'm not the one you are looking for. Take care. God bless you always. This is the most I can do for you." Then I send it out. But the message was not send. Maybe he knows that he had send the wrong person then he had block me on Facebook. Although I know that I'm not the one he is looking for but still I feel heartache. It's pain. It's really pain ……….

Things happened today.

02.02.2014  Sunday

I had been waiting for Steven's to whatsapp me since last night. I just want to know whether he is safe. Finally I had received a message from him and said that their ship now is .at Labuan Island. They will be there for another 20 days. But the problem is they have to offload their Goods/Products to another transportation ship or whatever. He said that he had kept his money in his cabin safe box and the money is for buying metal oil in drums from Korea for a company in Mexico which they have a agreement to it.

He Wants to be sure that he will never lost his money in any attack and he is going to send his money to me. He wants me to keep his money here with me. When I read his message my heart beat so fast and I'm scared. I don't want anything bad to happen to him and also I don't want to let myself to get hurt from anything too. I promise to help but still I'm afraid that I might choose to do the wrong thing.

Lord, Please help us out. Please be with us to lead us to guide us not to do the wrong decision. Lord, You are the great God. I commit everything into Your hands Lord. You are the one we trust most and everything is under Your control. You are the King above all gods. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

Danger Situation

02.02.2012  Sunday

It had been more than 14 hours I didn't receive any news from Steven. I received his whatsapp last night at about 10++ pm. He said that there was a seriously problem with the brain box of the ship is having a very serious problem. And they had receive a information from the signal house saying that they need to do everything humanly to get out of Indian ocean because of the Indian ocean tsunami alert which had started affecting the ocean wave and there are some pirate ships are just 37.04 km away from their ship trying to take advantage. Steven's mom was hospitalize and his daughter is with her now at the hospital.

I said I'll pray hard for them and also for his mom. I'm not going to sleep unless he is safe. I want him to update me whenever he has time, but till now I still didn't receive any news from him. I'm so worried and my eyes are going to close. I really didn't sleep for the whole night. Hope that they are just fine and May God bless them and be with them always. Lord, please lead them and guide them to a safest place. Have you be with them, No one can come against them. Amen.