Going crazy

I went to the doctor few days ago, doctor said that I hv some symptoms of depression. Omg, I was shocked n I'm so scared. Bcz I had been suffering from depression in yr 2003. I don't know who I am n I don't even know how I went through that 6 yrs.

I get to know lots of friends from dating apps. I start to tell everyone of them my problem. Guess what, most of them say bye to me and ask me to take care of myself. Some say I'll be thr with you but end up no more msg from the next day onwards. Hahaha life is harsh. U know what, after this thing, I come to know who is real n who is fake.

I'm not gonna make new friend anymore. I hv one frm India. He said the doctor is not a doctor. Hahaha, I don't hv any sickness but I'm in love lol. MR gives me a tips, he wants me to spend more time when my kids and to be happy everyday till he come back. He will spend all time with me n do all he can to make me happy. Another one more sweet, although we r not together but he will spend time talking to me over the phone to make me feel happy. He even say that I can call him any time if I want even he's at work. He will only be rest assured only when he know that I'm happy. Sweet right?

10 months later

Within this 10 months time, lots of things happen. I had file a divorce n I think I'm changing.

In the beginning I'm just chatting with friends who r from far. Its just normal chatting. Most of them had been chatting for more than a year. I did fall for one or two of them. But in the end........ long distance relationship can't last long...

After that, I get to know ppl from dating site. Those English men r not thr to look for a long term partner but money. They use all kind of excuses to ask u for money. Omg wht kind of world we r in? I thought I can find true love but that's all not I expected.

Now a day, I hv accepted friend request every where. I even go n meet up with them. Doing all kind of things that a couple will do. Yea, sometimes I feel like I don't even know myself anymore. Who am I actually? Omg....since when I become like that.......